“Reasons Why I Don’t Feel Like Writing”
Laziness, Worry, Headaches.
One of the main reasons I don’t feel like writing is because the people who I really care about don’t read anything I write even when it is free and easily accessible. I think that ice-cold indifference hurts more than the worst criticism. So what’s the point of expending all that energy to create when no one gives a crap. Obviously what I have to say is not in the slightest bit relevant to anyone.
It just breaks my heart.
Oh, and another thing – writing accesses and exposes my flaws, fears and insecurities to jealous people who would use that to hurt me. Yes, to be a writer and artist is an act of courage that takes its toll on the heart.
Sometimes I just can’t work up that courage.
L. Gloyd (c) 2009
From a prompt form Juicy Pens, Thirsty Pages, by SARK
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Saturday, July 18, 2009 at Saturday, July 18, 2009
Dijanne
Lori-firstly hugs hugs hugs- secondly you do this for you- you nurture you-you create , you are master and captain and navigator, and sailor of the ship. You have chosen the tough journey- but I for one read a lot of your writing even if I don’t join into thesoul food fray as much as I used to- I always look at what you have done and am remiss not to comment more- the last year has been about finding some sort of equilibrium, sorting out, discarding old dreams, finding new ones.
You are so right – you are brave!!
Saturday, July 18, 2009 at Saturday, July 18, 2009
Lori
Dijanne, thank you! I just want everyone to know that I was not referring to my online community not reading…. no, no, no. I was referring to my non-virtual posse of people in my life.
Actually, I was going to do another entry on the Reasons I Do Feel Like Writing and the SFC and Rookery folks were going to get top billing!
So, I just wanted to clarify that!
Saturday, July 18, 2009 at Saturday, July 18, 2009
cydlee61
This is great Lori and funny because I have started on my list too. I got it from SARK’s book where she has you make a writer’s support journal. I love the artwork you are doing in your journal…what a wonderful way of making the list come to life!
Saturday, July 18, 2009 at Saturday, July 18, 2009
woodnymph
You write for youself, Lori, not for those who don’t take the time to read…really read what you have to say. The loss is theirs, my dear, and theirs alone.
Vi
Saturday, July 18, 2009 at Saturday, July 18, 2009
senua
your reasons resonate with mine–the people i care most about NEVER read my work. i don’t know if it’s because they’re afraid it will be bad and they won’t be able to say anything positive but whatever reason, i allow their disinterest to hurt me.
and too, i see my flaws and insecurities. i am trying to conquer that by posting notes on my FB page. i figure if i can do that, then i can write anything.
sen
Saturday, July 18, 2009 at Saturday, July 18, 2009
almurta
I agree – it is hard to write into the vacuum but sometimes the cost of not writing is more than the uncertainty of writing. What I mean is – I find not expressing my creative urges tend to make feel cross and slightly depressed. I find that if I make myself do something creative everyday it releases a lot of pent up tension. I also find that when I’m making a lot of art I don’t write much and vice versa. When I’m writing a lot my art tends to more digital. I fiddle about with images I have already made and reconfigure them at the end of the end of writing session. That kind of art is done to illustrate the writing and is a way of winding down after the writing.
When I’m painting and drawing a lot the writing seems to go out the window.
My problem is carrying long term projects through to completion. If I could find the answer to that I’d really feel I was making progress.
Sunday, July 19, 2009 at Sunday, July 19, 2009
Jill
Oh huge hugs from this quarter too – I sooo empathise with your sentiments and didn’t for one moment take what you are saying personally – it is very clear to whom you are referring
…… I so often feel that way myself – all these wonderful online friends, my art community are so supportive – hmmm…now what about those in this so-called “real” world???
Much love and keep on doing what you are doing -.
Thursday, July 23, 2009 at Thursday, July 23, 2009
Tabitha
Another empathizer here…all around…thank you for being so brave and sharing…I applaud you and your talent!